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I have been asked at another site to explain the source of my username. If I am going to offer that information there, I should share it with my friends here first.

It began when I was an elementary school student. I was injured in the playground during recess. I was tripped on purpose. I received serveral minor injuries and one not so minor one to my hip and another even more severe to my knee. I was also kicked over and over again in my injuried knee while I was unable to move or defend myself. The injuries healed but have left behind a permanent reminder, in the form of a limp. On some days it is not noticable but on bad days it impossible to ignore. On most days it is somewhere in between these extremes.

A couple of years after that, when I was a student in Junior High School, we were shown a film in science class, the film was hosted by a silly cartoon character of Pan, the sayter god from greek mythology. One of the personality features of this cartoon character was that he walked with a gait that was similar to a limp. As luck would have it, that was one of my bad days when the my limp was more apparent. One of the students make a comment about the cartoon character stating that he walked as bad as me. That made the connection between me and Pan. By the end of the movie, I had been tagged with the epithet "The Panoid". This was meant by them to be hurtful, and even some of the teacher started to use it.

At the time we had a bulliten board on the hallway wall next to the door of the main office where we student were supposed to post announcements and thoughts of the day, much like the shoutbox that we have here. We had to sign our posted items. I didn't post announcement but rather what I hoped to be inspirational thoughts of the day. Once posted such a message would normally stay aroung for a week or so, until someone else need that space. Mine would be removed and discarded very shortly, usually within an hour.

Then I had an idea, I altered "The Panoid" into "I am Pangorian" and started signing my thoughts of the day with that nom de plume. For a while they became some what popular. Instead of being discarded when removed from the bulletin board, I saw many of them being used as mottos in class rooms or taped to book covers of the other students. I didn't think that the alteration of the epithet into the nom de plume was extreme enough to hide the connection, but, as far as I know, no one ever made the connection. However, it did not last. One day someone noticed me adding a note to the board and discovered that I was "I am Pangorian", word spread and and within the next couple of days, all the existing thoughts of the day, vanished.

A year latter, I had a problem with a teacher, who was was unfairly grading my work. I tested that theory by turning in a major creative writing assignement under the nom de plume of "Pangor". I was still being called "The Panoid" as an insult. So, I was not really hiding my identity if she would have stopped and thought about it. What did happen was that the assignment was graded and given an "A+", the first grade above a "D" that I ever got from her. She praised the quality of the work in front of the class and demanded that student who wrote the paper identify himself or herself. I did, and she would not accept my claim. I did in time prove my claim, and she reexamined the paper and regraded with an "F".

In technical, scientific, and business circles, such a name is hardly acceptable, however, in artistic and creative field, ever since that day, Pangor has been my regular nom de plume. As the my use of Pangor became more well known in the school, the use of "The Panoid" as an attempt to hurt me faded away. Of course there were other names that they used to insult me with instead.

None of my writing in those days were well recieved in school by the students, faculty, or administration. Oh there was one that was well recieved by a theacher, for a while. I have used some of those old writings from memory in to accompany some of my recent 3D artwork. The original titles of some of my old writings that I was able to recreate at least parts of from memory and used this way or otherwise posted are: The Pit of Perdition, Affirmation of Enduring Love, To the Valley of the People (a Paleolithic Prometheus).

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