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this is a followup of this topic: <br /> <br /> <a class="post-url" href="http://www.posetteforever.com/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=983">http://www.posetteforever.com/viewtopic.php?f=34&t=983</a> <br /> <br /> After so many years I decided to have the gastric bend removed. As far as today I've lost more than 50 kilos and i need to lose another 7 or 8, anyway I'm in decent shape. <br /> <br /> I've to say that it's not all the merit of the gastric bend, in the last 2 or more years I had it completely "opened" and i reduced my weight controlling myself, I've changed my job, sold the house etc, sure I've less stress or, something turned in my head. In the last few months (I mean since when I went back from my USA trip) I lost about 14 kilos myself. This thing give me problems in social life: when I have a dinner with someone I've always to explain to have it. <br /> I've already done the checks before the surgery last week and they called me this friday (yesterday) and I'll go to the hospital wednesday 21, on the surgery table on 22 , I don't know when I'll be back. <br /> If I would be in the USA, probably they would kick me out in a couple of days, but here they tend to keep people in the hospital for more time, so I can say, probably, to be home the next monday. <br /> <br /> Obvioulsy I'm scared and anxious, I'm grinding my teeth, I really don't like to give my life in the hand of someone, I would prefer to be under gun fire, seriously. <br /> <br /> Anyway, I'll have my tablet and my phone, the radio signal of the phone there is terrible but I should be able to connect, especially if I could be able to move from the bed, I think the same day of the surgery... I don't really like to be in a hospital. <br /> <br /> if you don't receive nothing from me, my brother Marco can be contacted at +393335363474 and email <!-- no smilies start --><script type="text/javascript"> <!-- document.write(' </script><noscript>marcocle [at] gmail [dot] com</noscript><!-- no smilies end --> , just tell him to open the first drawer of my desk and you'll receive the keys of the site. I don't want to be tragic but... I don't like hospitals. <br /> <br /> I just want to say that fat and weight affected the last 20 years of my life, probably ruined my spine more than my job, I'm only lucky that my blood samples are all into the normal level, and my blood pressure is low. My life has been on stress for a long time, for a series of reason, and I'm still searching a way to control anxiety, that makes me behave badly. I would probably need professional care. <br /> <br /> Chicca is ready to be carried to my brother's home for some days, I just feel terrible and need to relax. <br /> <br /> I would probably need to cry out my stress in some way but I don't know how now, maybe I should bump my head on the wall, lol <img src="https://www.posetteforever.com/images/smiles/biggrin.gif" alt="" /> <br /> <br /> <img src="https://www.posetteforever.com/images/smiles/dash2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="https://www.posetteforever.com/images/smiles/dash2.gif" alt="" /> <img src="https://www.posetteforever.com/images/smiles/dash2.gif" alt="" /> <br /> <br /> That's all, I'll keep you appraised.